random rambling



rambling start.

there are always a period of time you became confuse, tired, soul less, heart less, emotionally and hormonally unstable and what you really want to do now is just to be ALONE. to be at some place where you can think and clear up your mind and to ask yourself "what the heck are you doing??" or " what the hell have you done?"

i am in that state. i wish that everything surround me just stop so that i can take a breathe for a while. to leave up all these heavy rocks on my chest like an angina patient need his GTN stat. i wish i have pensive like Prof Dumbledore and put all my thoughts into it and restructure them and discard the useless ones. i need brain surgery.

things always not going to be like you want them to be. ALWAYS. you plan for A but the one that we will execute is always plan B. plan A is a utopia and plan B is the pain-in-the-ass reality. and whenever we have plan B, you are not your normal self. your alter ego will appear. they will meet your other half. when the time you realize it, you will regret in everything you have done. and it is too late to turn back. you will be so bad because they met your evil half and always unpleasant. damage has already made.

and one of the way that i can do to rejuvenate my soul will be by driving my car aimlessly. i wish i can drive it home (as in to Rembau like i always do) but to somewhere a bit outskirt might do so. jungle?, mountain?, beach?. all will do. can i go to all the places at one go?. maybe. in my dream. what i really need now is a car and DSLR and a nice place to go. apart from a clean room, a cupboard fill with ironed clothes and most of all, my family.

ramblings end.

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dr.dija said…
aik, knape ni? hmm..sgt berharap kami dpt terbang stat n make wani cheer up, mcm time kitorg dtg melawat aritu...
February 28, 2009 at 2:50 PM
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