what the f***

only GOD knows how happy i am now.

for the past few days, i went back at 5.30pm, initially felt really guitly but gradually turned emotionless. i dont care..huh..

finally i was able to eat chocolate waffle from hospi mart after 1 and half months smell the sweetness of the butter and creamy chocolate from far everytime i passed the shop.

i went to eat out with jasmin during lunch hour at a restaurant outside the hospital compound!!

we went out yesterday after work and ate sushi and gossiping about everything surrounds our lifes now, which most of them about our works in hospital, pathetically. 90% of them. pathetic pathetic

i had very least patient for the past one week. i must be as cold as icecool.

i love all my specialists and MOs and colleagues...there are all very helpful...not like other department..huh...my specialists and MOs are the best...yeehhhhhh

we received new colleaques!!!!...yeah...meaning more helpers, less workload.. yeah for them and for us...

so today i went back earlier than usual. i've finished my work around 10am. all my patient were stable before i left them. most of them in fact were planned for discharge tomorrow. i went home with a good feeling that everything is going to be ok.

suddenly i received a call from my colleague.
"dr wani, your patient in bed 9 just passed away, so i don't know what to do"

who?

i was shocked.

speechless and paused for few minutes before i resumed my talk.

'why?"

he was a middle aged man with multiple medical problems but we treated him as pneumonia with old infarct and renal impairment. he was fine when i talked to him this morning. did not complained of any chest pain, not breathless, he did appeared weak and lethargy. i did ausculted the lungs. it was cleared. no murmur noted. generally, he was fit to discharged home tomorrow, it just that we had to sort out few issues like long term renal replacement therapy and plan for coronary angiogram which i planned to discuss with the nephrologist and cardiologist tomorrow. my God, how life and death are just too sudden.

too sudden, it comes with too short notice.

i did not see it coming at all.

may he rest in peace.

amin

what the f888 going on with my day today..

hmmm...

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- tHeUnkNowN - said…
tell u wat... i used to hear this words b4... "laugh too much then ull cry" and "it will get worst when u feel its better"...

mayb that y...
November 1, 2008 at 8:01 PM
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