The one with the Ramblings

Yesterday, I download the guitar chord for this song. And now I able to strum the song! But yet need lot of practice. Still messy. Love this song. I hate oncall in weekend. I want to hibernate in my room and do nothing medically related.

I love OT OT? = operation theater The environment. Ambiance. Is Cool, Tranquil, Calm. Lately not much surgical cases unless if there is visiting Surgeon from Kuching. So I am more than happy if there is case like abscess for I+D. Even it is small, something that you can do under LA, I will even do it in OT. Because I like OT and the assistant is much better. The staffs are nice and friendly. Helpful. Probably the only time I talk the most is in OT. With them. I rarely have the conversation that is NOT medically or work related with other nurses in the ward or ER, even to my colleagues! I think because when I was at somewhere else, I was easily annoyed. When I am annoyed, I don't talk to people. When I am not happy, I don't talk. Silent treatment. Once I acted cold, it was difficult to act nice again. When I try too, I feel disgusted to myself, for "acting" to be nice when I am not. Why la. I myself not sure about it. Why is it OT different? Why the staffs receive diff...

Walaupun kengkadang rase trauma nak plan (after Trip to Japan cancel), tapi wat de heck, i like planning bende2 macam ni. Travel ala 360. But now with family, kene pikir tentang kebaikan semua orang gak. Hmm..Plan for Bandung next september Beijing! 2012... Rase nak pergi MPH sekarang and beli those travel book and language book and start making notes and budget expenses. Googling!!!! Secara tak langsung, akan jadi pemangkin utk bekerja lebih rajin..InsyaAllah Jessie J memang tipu. Mane boleh nak forget about the price tag? Kedai mane yang boleh bayar with love? Aja2 Fighting. Hari ini. ada 2 reasons to smile 1) Terima panggilan daripada Da Boss. Dah bagi nama, IC and MMC. diakhiri dengan kata2 semangat. "Ambil je la MRCS"...Hmmm...mode bace buku kembali....tapi lepas habis baca Handle with Care by Jodi Picoult. 2) Marisa Khadijah Borhan tuh dah beranak!!!!....Baby Boy!!!....She told me that she's gonna named him Adam....Terharu and sebak..nanti ku cerita kenapa aku terh...

Its a habit i cannot change. Previous post i talked about Korean drama love after a predictable, cliche, yet slight entertaining Taiwan Drama I watched; Corners with Love. The main actor, Show Luo honestly not that handsome but somehow as always, I googled him for unknown reason. (difficult to explain). But I guess that is what I do best. I found a guy and I google him. Doesn't have to be a celebrity. That's the power of internet. Thanks Google. After several youtubes, wikipedia and gossips forums, I found Show Luo to be a very interesting guy and a very famous one too. Funny, charismatic, funny, who treasures friendship a lot and honest. Hell of a good dancer too (not as good as Daniel Cloud Campos though, he still my top fav). Especially this youtube clip makes me repeats it 1000x. Love the every detail of popping. So cool. When you google about someone, you will come about his/her past life, how was he before he was famous, how he copes with it, how difficult his life was, ...

mintak maaf, terpaksa menyalahkan Korea dalam hal ni... Sebab, saya sayang Jepun! Sekarang aku kembali ke fasa Otaku (I mean, waktu tengah peak la, aku rase aku memang tak penah tinggalkan fasa otaku ini)..Tonton drama Jepun, Korea, Anime, Manga.. Kebahagiaan.... FYI. Ibu, sepupuku, kak Ina pun tengah layan drama Korea. Ibu pun dah maju setapak pandai bukak Youtube, MySoju etc. Hai..masa ini la tetibe rasa jadi suri rumah itu lagi best ..............................TAKLEH....tarik balik... Lalu ku tonton la cerita bertajuk Corner With Love, cerita lama kot, cerita dari Taiwan.. Best? Of course la seronok. Name pun drama kan. Cliche pun tapi seronok. Pasal ape? Ala macam biasa. Lelaki ni pemarah pastu bengap tak reti nak confess, pendam perasaan, kononnya, dia lebih bahagia dengan orang lain selain dia, pastu bila dah menyesal, berlari balik cari pompuan tu yang cantik, perfect, orang kaya, sweet, comel dan segala keindahan itu adalah dia, tapi juga bengap nak confess dan bebal tapi dim...

Hmmm nak jadi cynical la arini.. Pernah dengar lagu Talking to The Moon by Bruno Mars? Best kan? Romantic Pastu ditambah lagi dengan intro piano yang teramat merdu, dan alunan suara Bruno Mars, memang enak. Tetapi bila dengar lagu ni betul-betul, tetiba rase nak mengutuk. Ini liriknya: I know you somewhere out there Somewhere far away I want you back I want you back My neighbours think I'm crazy They don't understand You all I had you all I had At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the moon Trying to get to you In hopes you're on the other side Talking to me too Or Am I a fool Who sits alone Talking to the moon I feel like I'm famous The talk of the town They say I've going mad That I've going mad But they don't know what I know When the sun goes down Someone's talking back Yeah they are talking back At night when the stars light up my room I sit by myself Talking to the moon Trying ...

From South to North, then to East. I met with the newly weds, with the newborns, with the expecting. The birth, growing up, marriage, growing old, death; is supposed to be a beautiful cycle of life. But I become scared of it. Every single phase. I imagine myself in their shoes. What if I am not ready to accept my partner for richer and poorer, for sickness and health? What if I am not capable to raise a child in a world that I myself can't differentiate between the goods and the evils? What if when I am so worry about my future that I forget the ones that I love now? What if I fail miserably? What defines happiness? What if I am too happy now? As always, I walked along the waterfront, attempted to clear my conscience. The more I think of it, the more selfish and colder woman I've become. As much I love being me right now, I decided to cherish whatever I have now. The rest is up to YOU!

Kenapa cuti bukan 5 kali seminggu?..Kenapa cuti itu bukan tiap-tiap hari? Seronok tak hengat. Bersama mereka-mereka yang tercinta.. 1) Buat kenduri aka birthday "party" (party la sangat..gets on the dance floor people!) di rumah. Kecoh keadaan dengan kehadiran ahli2 keluarga sure kecoh. Seronok! Anak-anak sedara semua dah makin membesar dan aku makin memendek dan membulat. Sigh. 2) Waterhomes PD. Cakap kat ibu, dah lama plan nak book hotel yang mewah dan selesa untuk seisi keluarga melepak. Untuk ibu yang tidak perlu buat kerja rumah buat 2-3hari, babah yang tak perlu fikir pasal BTN or kerja, dan untuk Mama untuk keluar dari rumah sekali sekala, dan untuk the boys having fun out from the shelf. Terlihat ads kat majalah travel 360 masa balik dengan air asia aritu. Mengancam je nampak Waterhomes ni, siap ada pool dalam rumah! Atas laut lak tu. Survey harga, nampak gaya boleh la dibayar dengan credit card. So aku pun rembat la. Antara kesimpulan yang aku dapat buat; kalau aku d...