end of 2-years-HO speech

Drum rolllllllllll....................

Today, i finally received an affirmative decision by my superior that i am allow to go to Kapit!!..Thank you. I will be a Kapitan. That means, my 2years-misery-life as HO is ending. What a relief!!

Since the sentimental part of me has been more dominant for the past few weeks, i am going to reveal the truth and the honest feelings, the good and the bad experiences for the past 2 years of me as a houseman.

Get a snack cuz this going to be longgggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


THE POSTINGS AND ROTATIONS

MEDICAL - I started my rotations with medical. I think i have been telling this story over and over again especially to the juniors. How i started with very few housemen. I remember at that time medical only had 3 senior housemen; and i remember i tagged under Jasmin who was also still tagging. Only few of us at that time, Jasmin, Sh Hanisah, Angel, James, Chan HC and me. It was the dark ages where we only have everything OD basis. OD urination (almost got ARF), OD meal, and EOD calls for 2-3weeks. I was like 80kg at that time (post holiday weight) and i managed to loose about 20kg in just 2months. No kidding. It was really tiring but somehow there were times you would feel rewarding and you have this stupid statisfaction feeling. The bosses were great. I am so proud to work with Dr Voon, Dr Tiong, Dr Tay CL, Dr Wong SY, Dr Lee Jun and the rest of them. They never make me feel demotivated or never patronize about your work. At that time i felt like i never regret of choosing Sarawak. But still there were incidents that you will never ever forget for the rest of your life such as the first patient who actually thank you, the first patient you "killed", the first thing you did things wrong and got screwed badly by your bosses. All turned out to be a very usefull lesson and bittersweet memories. It was really tiring but fun and i made lots of money!!. i remember the feeling of having your first paycheck. it was worth it. Ka-ching!!!!

Kayaking..it was an impromptu decision but it was a blast.

SURGICAL - It always this feeling that once you are comfortable with something, it is really hard to let it go and to move to a new environment. The process of to get to know new people and making new friends is always very stressful to me. I later joined surgical department. Yes i do like surgical based postings. I indeed do have interest in surgery. I adore Dato Kanda and i feel like i might get myself into surgery one day. But surgery here has too much politics that i don't really like. Personally, there are few surgeons who i respect for their skills in surgery. I really do. Like how i like Mr Phung's surgeries. Very patients and skillfull. But some of them like to concentrate on the surgery itself only and don't really look at the patient as a whole, but more as a "hole". Despite my love and interest in surgery, i didn't really enjoy the posting. Some of the ridiculous stuff that i disagree. Especially the bosses like to have a Veto decision. However, to be able to assisst in the surgery was superb. To be able to see the guts and the bowels in laparotomy is such a nice feeling. I love to do appendicectomy too. My first appendicectomy was under the most bitchy and nasty MO ever who is now a specialist. But it was quite a learning experience. I managed to open an appendicular mass too under her supervision. Just ignore the nagging, be deaf and enjoy the procedure. Cool. Paed surgery was stressful because you will work under the most dedicated paed surgeon in the world. I managed to have "love affairs" with some of the kids there. But i am still not up to par with Miss Anne. I think i don't have the attitude.

At Jong's crocodile park, praying before entering the croc's nest. Gambatte!!!

OBSTRETIC AND GYNAECOLOGY - The only thing that i will remember about O+G and i will never ever forget will be the encounter and sleepless nights with Dr John Lim Boon Beng. Yes. Memorable, sweet and painful. Most of my oncalls with him will be very eventful, sleepless and fun!! I stucked in the OT for 24hours with continuous LSCS, ectopics, EUAs. But he is a nice MO after you know him better. He once saved my ass when i involved in a case which the baby was pulseless after delivery. I was only few minutes late to inform him regarding that case. He helped me with the documentation and the explanation to the parents. Oncalls in the labour ward will the best so far compared with other postings. I am not sure myself why but probably because you have few others colleague oncall with you make your calls not that boring. Other than John Lim, labour room was a nasty annoying place to be. With the uncooperative, irritating mother-to-be, shouting in agony but all those things will be forgiven after you see the baby finally came out and when you see the bonding between the mother and the baby. You will suddenly feel like want to have a child but of course not from your own vagina. yet. haha. I am truly salute those mothers because you girls are rock and strong.

Once in a blue moon, enjoying night life Sarawakian's style. Singing out of pitch

PAEDIATRIC- was hell, is hell and forever hell. The working environment was hostile especially if you are an XX (recently i heard even the XY is too no exception). The kids however were sooooo cute. The premature babies are sooooo cute. I can't be a peadiatrician definitely because i can easily attach to them. From my observation (which i think Kak Pah may agree with me), that those fathers who always come and take care of their children at the ward are hot. I came across few guys in the category of hot stuff but suddenly came to the ward with a child on his arms. Too bad. All these guys are already taken. Sigh. hmmmmmm....Funny, maybe that's the only memory that i have during the paediatric posting. Stalking married guys. haha..nahhh...
I remember my last oncall was the time when the whole family was stung by the hornets. The sleepless night resuscitating those poor children. May they rest in peace.

Bako trip. Road to the tranquility and calmness.

EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT- It was fun. The most fun of all. The working in shift is the best thing ever. Because of that, i was able to watch cartoon every morning when i was at pm shift. I had bad experience with one of the MO though that cause my first 2 months were a bit gloomy. But who cares. (ada aku kesah!!!). i only have to work for 8hours perday and thats it. But it was very stressful at work because everything you do must be stat! and reflex most of the time. Here the statement "the eyes never see what the brains doesn't know" really applicable. And if you at the green zone, it is very advisable to wear a mask and don't wear your nametag. Reason why? Because if you come across a very truly annoying patient than you can scold them without them knowing who you really are. It was fun though. I found a lot of interesting cases. The head of deparment Dr Chan is the most interesting HOD ever. Mount Santubong really rocks. I truly respect Dr Nariman. She is sooo...mmmm...more than words.

Ranchan's waterfall.


And Damai Beach. When the sound of the water helps to relieve your stresses

ORTHOPAEDIC - The subject is something that i never like and truly hate since medical school. Bones and bones. I couldn't take it. Yeiks. But the environment is so cool. The bosses are so cool. Mr Naz, Mr Zaki, Dr Chong, Dr Diong, Dr VIjay, Dr Kimtay and etc. in fact all of them. They make you feel so relax. You do respect them, in fact they are good surgeons but the are too relax in certain matters. They can be your good friends. There was a thinking that i had last time, that if they really want to retain me in orthopaedic, i actually don't really mind. Maybe because they are guys and i like being treated like guys. I don't know actually. But the posting itself is quite relax and easy. by the end of the posting, i gain my weight slowly. Haha. Maybe to save enough for me to loose them at Kapit later on. Will see.

Nice view of Sematan Beach, where my bossess showed their true "identity"

FRIENDSHIPS AND RELATIONSHIPS

Sharifah Naemah aka KakPah has forever be my soulmate and partner-in-crime since we started work here. We went through the ups and downs, the sad and happy time. For all that, makes her special. She is the only person that have my trust in everything, including as my personal advisor, my wardrobe advisor and etc. The travel, the trekkings, the been-there-done-that plan, etc. I am really thankful to have her with me here and i want to thank her for all the things she has done for me (like cook for me, manage my car sometime, clean up the house, my secret keeper, being my ears and shoulders). For being there when i need someone and for her patience having to deal with unpredictable me. For everything. I am going to miss her. I hope this relationship never ends. Maybe we will come out with a bigger project. Backpacking overseas? sure we will. Anything is possible when we are together.

Lesbo?...Nahh...We are straight..

Street photography aroung waterfront

Marissa - Hanging out with her make me feel comfortable. Maybe because of her happy-go-lucky attitude makes me feel easy. She has been a great friend for me, also during ups and downs. She is someone that you can rely on. She always make herself available to you and always been the ears and shoulders for me (you know la, i like to talk a lot sometime don't i). She makes everything and anything looks so simple. She is my mentor. Hait sifu!!!... Hanging out with her always fun. Even just eating together.

We are sista!!!

berjalan-jalan di depan waterfront and act like a tourist. Biasa dah keje macam ni.

Fahmy - My first "gay" friend. Haha. But honestly, i am so thankful for his existence in my life. It was started with a crush but turns out to be a good friendship. Maybe his relax and childish attitude (don't really care of showing the childish attitude in public like drop some coins and coffee beans or hang out at toy shop) makes me comfortable hanging out with him. He managed to point out the less feminine side on me and the more feminine side of him. Haha. At least, with him, i can talk less about hospital stuff which is so depressing and pathetic sometime. So thank you for hopping into my life. You are my best "gay" friend ever. Thank you Bro.

Gay partner aka beautician

Flying Mojo at Friendship Garden and feeding the hungry fish later on

Few other "crushes" along the way. Like the MA in A+E, being a secret admirer of few MOs and specialist. But crush is always a crush. So far i manage not to "fall". Because i never fall. Not many eligible gentleman around in the hospital anyway. Friends and colleagues have been great. I have wonderful colleagues, Jasmin, Angel,Sharifah Hanisah, Yasmin aka minci, Yong Lee, Mei Ching, Chan Hui Chin, Tan Chai Lee, Lai Jun Tian, Nazihah, Jana etc. There are helpful and reliable.

Few nurses are nice and friendly and most of them not. But i do thank those who has been helpful and efficient.


WEALTH AND POSSESSIONS

Manage to get a descent ride. My Rushie. Thank you for being there with me all the time, especially whenever i feel so lonely and depress which i will drive you to outskirt while listening to Alanis and etc.

Manage to get an almost DSLR. Baby has been very helpful to me to ease my craziness about photography.

Manage to have a Sony Viao which i always dreamt of since i was a student.

Manage to have the full set of FRIENDS DVD.



So for the past 2 years of my life as houseman, i totally enjoy it. Despite the depressions, the annoying patients and staffs, the demanding bosses. But i have a very supportive family and friends. Honestly, my decision to work here is the right thing to do. Hopefully, Kapit will give me a new interesting experience. Looking forward to working there.

To those people, that has help me to have a wonderful 2 years houseman life, i would like to present my greatest gratitude for making all this possible. Thank you.

Looking forward for the next episode of my life