The one with the Ramblings

few days ago, i received a surprise phone call from a friend. not a usual friend, more or less an old colleague. She was a doctor and we worked together when we both in medical posting. it was awkward because we don't really close; ie we never had a lunch together last time and we didn't really tell stories to each other and receiving a phone call from her after more or less 1 year after that, it was kinda weird. anyway, we went out for a lunch. she is happy. she made the best decision of her life, that's what she said. she feels more freedom and it is the kind of the lifestyle that she wants. i am happy for her. i felt fishy though and i was right. end up that the lunch was for a piece of favor she needs for her work. to be the guests in her up coming project thingy that involves something like nutrition and diet. pity her. it was a major mistake she did because she was asking a wrong person from the beginning. i don't do diet. i don't really care about my health a...

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pernah tengok horror movie? pernah tengok orang yang disiat kulitnye sampai jadi macam gambar kat atas? scary ek? let me tell you what is scary. it is scary to see a man in that condition is still alive. still breathing and the eyes still moving. i attended to an operation; wound debridement and split skin graft for a patient with 70% burn. he was quite famous though. those HO who had undergone burn ward rotation will tell the same story. "it was horrible" i couldn't believe my eyes. it was difficult to describe though. the whole trunk was burn but the skin was quite ok. both of his hands were badly injured. you can see the bone at certain part and blood was dripping when you removed the dressing. the face. the whole skin burned. the eyes exactly like in the picture. lot of slough at the wound. very very minimal skin left for him. when i saw him, the only question that keep on repeating in my mind during the operation was "what have you done wrong until you become li...

bagi mereka yang telah mengenali aku lebih dari aku sendiri, mungkin korang perasan yang aku ni a) sentiasa di alam fantasi (sebab fantasi lagi best dari realiti) b) kegilaan aku bermusim oleh itu, untuk musim ini, aku pilih Mizushima Hiro sebagai jejaka kegilaan musim ini. (sebelum ni penah menggilai Paul Walker, Johnny Depp, Hugh Jackman, Ikuta Toma, Yokoyama Yu). mainly and mostly because of this. aku rase aku dah tengok trailer ni dah juta2 kali. kenape aku suke tengok trailer ni sampai termimpi2. 1) sape pengikut majalah gempak kat sini angkat bulu hidung?..yeah..kalu korang kipas-susah-mati (die hard fan) komik gempak tu, korang mesti ingat satu komik iaitu 2dudes. famous and fofuler a citer tu. ingat lagi slay..aku dilahirkan terrer dan handsome. so ape kene mengene ngan citer ni?..sebab karakter slay and karakter dalam citer jepun ni lebey kuang (mostly dari segi physical). 2) sebab pelakon a of coz. memang tak boleh disangkal lagi. hands down. mizushima hiro (yang blonde) tu m...

everyone, now lets do the math this picture.... this is a wild boar and this picture these are the monkeys what are the two pictures have in common??? the answer is..... we can see them both in front of our chalet in B.A.K.O YAATTTA!!! Lalu KP tergelak dengan keji...hahahaha.. yes, that is absolutely right. we went to Bako yesterday. it was fun. we left the house on 17th may 2009 around 2pm, went to the Bako jetty by taxi. (initial plan was to go there by bus, to make it more adventurous but since the taxi also on the way to Bako to pick up customer and he offered us with quite a reasonable fare, so we just went on with that. RM10 per person to the jetty) we took the semi D chalet , cost RM50 per room. they also have a house and dorm for accomodation. the boat ride was fun. and guess what we found??? a crocodile!!!!!....but a tiny one. the boat ride only took about hmmmm...less than 1 hour. 30-40minutes?or even less. i am not sure. i was awestrucked by the beautiful scenery hence i do...

for my 100th post, i want to share with all of you the new comers in my life. presenting:- drum roll please ambobzeela.... oops...forgive me...i don't mean these all 4 hotties here...with stunningly skinny legs.. 1) my baby!!!!....DSLR lumix oops,,cannot see a??..of course, i'm hugging him bah.. ok, that's him...nice right??..i know..thanks 2) next, presenting... ahmad rushie... the road monster..he is the king..rushie rulez baby!!..zephyr don't get jealous ok baby. i still love you both equally. hopefully ajat taking care of you well right baby zephyr. 3) my laptop..vivi...for sony vaio..he is my other half, my soulmate, my life. my imperfection. my zettai kareshi... and since i have all these now, expects more stories and pictures from me. with my rushie that can bring to anywhere i want to, my baby that can capture every single memories and my vivi to visualize everything, my life getting more interesting.. and ya, by the way.. just a reminder..you may have to see th...

i lost a patient during my last call. the patient that i first met when i was in medical posting and was then admitted to the surgical ward. what i remember about her, apart from all the illnesses that she had was how difficult it was to take her blood. she has a very supportive family members especially her husband who always there for her. they were a very sweet couple. always joking with each other. that night, when i was on call, i received a call that someone collapse in the ward. never slipped in my nearly empty mind at that time that the person was her. i saw her and talked to her 2 hours prior to that during her hemodialysis and she was fine. i met her husband after that. this was the first words he uttered to me "35 years doctor. 35 years. akhirnya berpisah jugak (at last, we separated)" he must have love her soooo much. during ups and downs. rarely we see this kind of couples nowadays. the soulmate for live. and i found this interesting ads as well. i hope i also wi...

"kami overwork, understaff" itu je alasan yang famous dan meluat yang aku dengar. apakah malang nasib aku pada 2 hari lepas, aku terpaksa mendengar satu perbualan yang menyakitkan hati, sampai aku ada abscess kat telinga, ENT bleeding, liver abscess, posterior anterior myocardial infarction complicated with cardiac tamponade and sepsis. tahap bengang grade 8. my boss ada satu proposal. niat dia baik. aku amat setuju. nak buat satu study tentang thrombophlebitis incidence kat ward. everyday rounds dengan boss ni dia akan check setiap IV line yang ada, tengok ada merah ke tak. everyday kitorang akan jumpe patient ada thrombophlebitis. so, mangsanya aku. aku dah siap paperwork nak tunjuk bende alah tu kat sister-in-charge, untuk sampaikan kat orang bawahannya (Nurses) untuk implement this. to help in filling up the form jer. Suster itu punye jawapan " i am not keen, we are understaff and overwork" takpe lagi. my boss sabar je. suddenly timbul isu as if study tu nak men...

to this owner of this black shadow... the black figure.. today... i would like to say... THANKS A ZILLION!!! 1) for supporting me in whatever i do, in whatever path i've took and will be 2) for having faith in me. trusting me and leading me in any of my decisions and judgements that i've made 3) for giving me necessary and sufficient freedom that i need 4) for working hard 5) for your sleepless nights and your lost weekends and less meals 6) for all the beneficial guidances, academically and non academically 7) for the money you've spent for me; academically and "non academically" 8) for loving me and caring for me and taking care of me well 9) for motivating me to be successful in life 10) for the best "wok-wi-chen" in the world 11) for the singings 12) for all the jokes you've told us 13) for the times you've spent with us 14) for the warm hugs 15) for being the greatest Babah ever i still remember the time you cook me the scramble egg you call...

I 100% agree to the above statement. love is blind. and today, love is the air baby. remember about the boy i in love with. who captured my heart by his charms and cuteness and his cute giggles. yes, that boy. a 4-year-old Iban boy from Sibu who was admitted for hypospadias repair. his name is A. i received a message from a friend yesterday, a day after i left paed surgical ward. that boy wanted to see me. looking for me during the rounds asking "mana kawan saya?". i was flattered. so cute. i planned to see him actually on that day but because i was oncall and i was in OT until 1am, when i went to the ward, i saw him sleeping with his mom. today, i decided to visit him since today. the moment i entered the ward, i shouted "KAWAN!!". there he was, smiled at me wearing a blue t-shirt, not the hospital attire. a bit odd and i was wondering myself why. i saw there were few bags next to his bag looked well kept and packed. i realized, he was planned to be discharged that...