The one with the Ramblings

father and son next robin hood the red umbrella blue girl with the red beg the director of Limbang Hospital..hahaha can you tell what are they thinking? how's their feeling? hmmm...

orang cakap raya haji adalah untuk orang yang dah dapat haji. ada cakap raya haji atau raya korban adalah hari untuk mengkorbankan lembu dan kerbau yang ada. raya? ini raya haji kedua di Sarawak. last year family aku datang. hari ni, raya dengan jihah yang tengah melayan sedih dan duk tanya kat diri sendiri "kenapa aku tak balik?" secara berulang kali sambil menutup duka dengan mengemas rumah. ya betul, kemas rumah is one of the best way to handle stress and depression. hasilnye pun berbaloi baloi. (P/s :- bilik aku sekali?) rendang yang jihah buat semalam pun not bad.sedih aku tengok minah tu. tak pe jihah.ko ada aku. even though aku tak bawa ape2 impact pun. kak pah pulak decide untuk beraya dengan orang iban di kapit. minah tu ade je aktiviti. meninggalkan aku sendirian di sini. huh. takpe. takpe. raya bagi aku? aku bangun pun kul 10am (kunun nak beramah mesra dengan rakyat, plan nak g semayang raya la, jalan-jalan kat neighbourhood la.) semua terkubur disebabkan penangan ...

ish...dah lame tak buat kuiz untuk mengenal diri sendiri...terbace this in someone's blog..terpakse cube.. so here's the results - my personality is Harmony Seeking Idealist!!! THE TYPE Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings . They are warm-hearted persons by nature. (wah..kembng kuncup hidung aku..haha) They are sympathetic and understanding. (lagi???..udah udah la puji) Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character. But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism. (so true..it hurts until now...damn you) Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves...

i think this is the after effect of being alone too long and having too much time only for yourself causing a major self destruction. there are times you feel lost that you suddenly do not know what to do in your life. you feel like "i think i have enough" or "maybe i am comfortable with whatever i have now" hence you feel like you don't have to work so hard anymore. you feel discourage and demotivated. you feel like what else should i do. i have everything now. i am neither poor nor rich. i am indeed happy. i have basically achieved almost everything i wished for. without the help from Santa or Red Cross. i have no commitment for me to slave myself into. i just hope it will maintain to be this way forever. and you ended to spend the rest of your life being comfortable. but then again, don't you feel wasted? maybe your raison de'tre is for others surround you. your family. your love ones. the aunties at the Satok bridge. that young sweet girl at Indian ...

First of all, i am grateful and thankful that i am still alive and i am still in one piece. I am still able to type this entry in and still able to see, still able to walk around and orientated. i am still me. This all started with my ambitious, adventurous, up beat boss who forced us to climb mount Santubong. "you think being a doctor is difficult ha? then let's climb mount Santubong" yes. the cliche phrase he keeps on repeating. So we did. Yesterday. I was on sleepless night duty a day before. So you can sort of imagine my energy level at that time. A bit of stressful night with unpleasant encounter with my night duty MO. Macam biase la. ape principal? Play deaf and dumb. Patronization is your food in your life. Learn from your mistakes. 11 of us including Boss Chan. Me, Aza, Fara, Jas, Pangie, Yong Lee, Chen Ting, Ronald, Hui Chin and the 3rd time climber Mr Law Boon Tat. We left the hospital at around 8 and we started climbing at 830am. Tell you what. Even i am post n...

this is the best version of canon rock i've ever heard. i've heard from JerryC, Mattrach (maybe new canon rock by MattRach also not that bad)..i think this cute guy is the best. the fingers are so smooth and beautiful!!!!... tell you what. youtube is addictive. you can't get enough of it everyday.

i made my review about this manga once in my old blog. Its here . i managed to catch up on reading this manga until now, what a relieve i must say. even better, they make it into anime. yatta ne. the storyline just great. the drawing is cute and the characters are so freely. initially i was reluctant though to read this manga. maybe i was disturbed by the characters which resembles some of the characters in one piece. besides, i was not a fan of Rave Master, another manga created by the same mangaka Hiro Mashima. but after reading it, Hiro-san prooved me wrong. it is just another original piece of his. (and there are few handsome characters as well like Gerard, Gray, Loki...ahhh...kakkoi). the anime is also nice. seiyuu for Natsu character also sounds so gentleman. is it me or my life just getting better. u can watch the online anime here - I'm Natsu the dragon slayer and read the manga here - Erza Scarlet is the most powerful woman mage ever exist still reading bleach and onepiec...

this is to show that i spend most of my time browsing youtube. youtube rowks. and this kid just so adorable.

nak g osaka!!!....taknak kerje....nak pergi melancong je....jom! jom kite buat kat malaysia..sah kene hantar tanjung rambutan