The one with the Ramblings

It is just another shatty day for me at work. Super duper busy with ERCP with lots of data collection need to be done and lots of scans to discuss. Unstable and sick patient. Post call and sick partner. To make things worse, i am oncall today. But A little message made my heart danced a bit. An offer from a distant friend to join in their backpacking trip to New Zealand. A little bit of info about this friend 1) i know her from my mother. My mom and her mom are friends. And they are not like old school besties that still contact each other up till now. They only recently know each other because they shared the common interest; cats. In malay we called it like "besan" or in laws la because we married out cats together and produced end products like Sally and Tom. Biasa la moms like to talk about their children so then i know her. We become friends through msg and facebook. 2) up till now i never met her in person. So when Mimi asked me to join her to New Zealand, i felt a ...

H ow are you feeling today Zawani?   This was asked in Facebook when you want to upda te the stat us. I went numb. Think really hard then went bla n k. Ngaaaaa..Troll face . I had lots of feelings. Lots of things ha ppened and it all came at the same time made me acted funny.  I was motivated this morning  so i came to work quite early than usual.  Then i got an gry to a houseman for being so blur but turned very "sister-ly" to the other one. I fel t happy when seeing pa tie nt is walking back home happ ily Felt hopeless when yo u know that your patient is dying but you can't do anything t o help . Felt gra teful for things that happened to me that is not happen to others. Felt lo nely when others have partne rs and love ones Felt annoyed when ann oying people making ann oying gestures and annoyi ng statements Felt e xtra superio r to people that is inferior t o you   and felt stupid an d demotivated whe n seeing patient dete...