The one with the Ramblings

can you guess what is he thinking? Or can you guess his story? a cute kid i met during my last boat ride back from Sibu to Kapit. (pictures are taken and put in chronological orders)

Something unique and interesting fact I found in schizophrenic people. ~they are the kindest people when they are in the sane state~ She is a mother of three, recently given birth to her 11months old boy with her second husband. Her first husband was hostile to her whom enjoyed beating her. At that time, she was only 15years old and already had a child with him. God's merciful, her husband left her and she remarried to another guy. Not as good as her previous man, he is a drunkard, but was better in the sense that he didn't beat her and frequently visits her at the hospital. Fair enough for me. She was schizophrenic at a very young age. Unintentionally not compliant to her meds because of the transportation and financial problems with a poor family support. She is currently staying with her kyphoscoliotic mother who is really really old and weak with her youngest children. The eldest who is now 14years old, married and has a child stays with her husband and she herself not relu...

Disorder Rating Paranoid Disorder : Very High Schizoid Disorder : Moderate Schizotypal Disorder : Moderate Antisocial Disorder : High Borderline Disorder : Moderate Histrionic Disorder : Moderate Narcissistic Disorder : High Avoidant Disorder : Moderate Dependent Disorder : High Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder : Moderate -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Had a wonderful days spent at Kuching. Ironically, it used to be the most hated place. I ran, if you want to use that word, or escaped, or took a break, from what was happening to my life which affected my soul terribly. I was looking for the answers to my questions. I need advise and leads and comfort as I know, I was not in a clear state to make decision. I came here, to calm that soul that I know was filled with anger and dismay. And I came here to find someone or something to help me with it. And to find new perception about life. The result? I would say, it was a success. I posted these at my facebook. " at the end of this trip, I am certain about few things. 1) I wont come back to Kuching too soon and probably not coming back at all. 2) I like to travel 3) I need to save up to 20 million dollars so that whoever my future husband will be may need a plastic surgery and have Johnny Depps face" I am no kidding. 1) I wont be coming back as a MO back to Kuching. Not now. I do...

i had fun with my web cam yesterday. Soooo much of nothing to do and no mood to do anything smart or beneficial. So here they are people, presenting to you, some of my emotions reflect by my face. This is how I look like every morning to work. Not a morning person. When I found out that I am genetically a male!!!...IF.. and a moron I am... When patient gave inconsistent history or acting spoil or acting like a pain in the arse. Fantasizing about anything, me traveling around the world and meet handsome hunks and etc.. Ok I overdid it. Maybe this is how I look like if I cry. look like a grandma.. Is he OK? Will he? Will he be fine? Are these emotions are real? Can you tell whether are they authentic or just a play of expression? Shhh...its a secret....

I initially want to share a story of what had happened yesterday. I was so furious to know that. But in the end of the day, I told this myself. " Let Karma deals with it" It is only the start of the year and I already have all these problems and nonsense in my life. Kind of scary to have a thought of how my life going to be for the next 360days ahead. It was easy. I googled my horoscope. Let see how Sagittarian will do this year. Article taken Yahoo. Life Trends 2011 for Sagittarius Finances can be slightly unpredictable ( slightly unpredictable? That really scares me. Have to restrain those temptation of spending spree. Need to save a lot for Japan!! ). It's worth putting some money aside whenever you get a chance, so you have something for that proverbial rainy day. Expect to see quite some changes in your friendships throughout 2011. The people you mix and socialise with at the start of the year may not be around later or by the end of the year, you could find yourself...