The one with the Ramblings

today its the ending for:- 1) my sedentary lifestyle consists of sleeping long hours, surfing the internet for hours and then eat a lot and sleep again 2) i-want-to-see-how-fat-can-i-be-within-2-months' mission (i'll tell the result of this mission later) 3) cindy, sally and johnny to play together, hugs and kisses each other because we are going to send cindy and johnny to their new owners around next week which i may not be around to see the departure(i'll post the pic later when i have time and if i still remember) 4)my not-so-noble interest which is downloading anime, songs and anything that are download-able for fun purposes (not for online streaming though) why?...why everything has to stop here today? because tomorrow i'll be off to KL for my convocation thingy. so? so, i will be quite busy from tomorrow onwards hence there will be no time for me to sleep a lot, eat a lot, with less movement possible because i have to move a lot tomorrow and onwards. you can'...

it happened so fast... before i could take her last picture with us... someone has taken her away... a stranger who i have no clue at all who she is... came to us just now and wanted to take care of Lala... hence, we just let she took her. cradled Lala in her arm. took her into the car and drove off with a promise that she would be taken care of. since she also has a cat who recently give birth, hence Lala could share the sufficient foods she needs to grow up healthy. so, Lala just left us. but only just now i saw her playing with Sally, Cindy and Johnny... only just now i bottle fed her with formula milk, listening to her noise while drinking.. only just now i heard her cried for attention, but the voice was weak.. only just now i saw her walk.. just a moment ago.. now.. it seems too quite for me.. too relax.. it should be a good thing though but.. i am not happy at all.. i was not planning for this kind of goodbye.. i thought it should be a happy one... but i am not happy.. i am sad....

semalam aku, dengan rela hatinya, mewakili babah yang sibuk dengan kerja, untuk menghadiri satu mesyuarat agung koperasi di SMKUR. mesyuarat tu memang bosan. masuk semalam dah 3 kali aku mewakili Babah untuk mesyuarat ni. antara alasan aku rela hati menerima tugasan ini ialah siapa yang hadir mesyuarat tu akan dapat duit..ngeh ngeh ngeh.. seriously, ia diantara mesyuarat yang paling bosan pernah aku hadiri. lagi bosan dari mesyuarat kelab dan badan beruniform. since ni kali ketiga aku pergi, aku dah siapkan diri aku dengan bahan-bahan yang membantu aku dari kebosanan seperti buku dan mp3. dorang selalu cakap pasal nak lantik ahli baru, nak lantik pengerusi and keuntungan and kerugian koperasi yang aku yang tak pernah belajar akaun ni macam dengar dorang cakap bahasa alien. aku memang bodoh kalau pasal akaun, duit, ekonomi and politic. damn. eh..mane cite pasal khairy?? ok.macam ni. sepatutnya khairy jamaludin dijadualkan untuk merasmikan majlis tu. aku pun baru tau masa nak pergi tu. t...

yesterday... yesterday, Lulu was so sick. i only noticed it late evening when i realized that she did not meowing the whole day. i was curious and found her in the box, looked very very weak and her neck was extended, stiff when i tried to flex it and the arms moving like a see-saw repeatedly and quite stiff. i also noticed that her right eye was closed and yellowish discharge came out from it when i tried to clean it up. it was a very sad scene to watch. i felt so pathetic and useless, not only i knew she was going to die and i did not know how to help her. no vet clinic in Rembau and the nearest would be either Seremban or Tampin. but we decided that it was better to let her go. personally too, i believed she might not survive from the battle. so we could only hope that she could go peacefully and less vain. i was at her side most of the time, looking at her struggling fighting the disease within. i felt so useless at that time. "what else can i do to help her?". i wrapped ...

it is very unusual for me to receive letters. however, these past few days, i felt very anxious when i received an envelope with my name on it. today, i got 2 letters. one is from Biro tatanegara, stating that i have to start my induction course 2 days after my graduation day. it seems that my original plan to have fun in KL with my family and cousins might be canceled. maybe we have to go back to Rembau at the same day. by receiving this letter, it somehow make me realize how near my holidays will end and me starting to work as a real doctor. damn, it was a very scary thought. am i able to make it? not as just being a doctor but to be a doctor who according to the oath i took to "first do no harm"? with a small amount of memories i have about medicine that i have learned for the past 5years, i hope that i will not kill anyone on my first day of duty. let me impress them instead. yes. that's the spirit i want to have. the second letter i received today was from MARA. just...

Your Japanese Name Is... Nanako Tanaka What's your Japanese Name? nanako??..majide???...hait.. hajime mashite.. watashi no namae wa Nanako Tanaka desu.. yoroshiku onegaishimasu..

What's Important to You... And What Isn't: For you, primal needs like eating and sleeping are your top priorities. You find getting things done to be fairly satisfying. You like feeling accomplished. You have trouble giving time to any of your priorities. You life is too busy and chaotic. You want your health to be a high priority, but you don't often get around to taking care of it. The Priority Test haha, memang betul...makan dan tido untuk amat penting...camne nak jadi besar kalau tak makan and tak tido..ye tak??..my life is too busy and chaotic??..not now but maybe later...waaa.. You Are 55% Normal While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself How Normal Are You? so maksudnya ape ni??..aku ni separuh normal???..macam agak accurate je quiz ni... Your Beauty Element is Earth You are the epitome of a natural beauty. Your look is definitel...

kecoh satu dunia sekarang pasal kekurangan makanan asas. terutamanya beras yang menjadi makanan ruji penduduk negara-negara di Asia terutamanya. tak payah la cakap pasal macam mana orang semua panik sebab takot tak cukup makan seluruh dunia, cerita pasal orang kat Rembau ni pun dah cukup untuk menunjukkan betapa gilanya orang sekarang pasal isu makanan tak cukup ni. beberapi hari lepas, aku teman Mama (my grandma) ke kedai nak beli beras. dia terus panik sebab orang kedai tu tak bagi Mama beli beras lebih dari 2 kampit. Mama terus macam nak gila. terus dia ke semua kedai termasuk pasaraya nak buat bekalan stok beras setahun. waktu itu juga, aku rase ada la dalam 5 kali atau lebih dia cakap statement ni. "Mama risau ni Dik, Mama rasa macam zaman Jepun. nak makan apa la anak cucu cicit Mama ni ha. Ya Allah, risau Mama ni Dik. Mana nak cari beras ni. Makan ubi kayu la kita. tak kira la mahal macam mana pun kita beli je. duit boleh cari." aku tau ni satu isu yang serius. betul. s...

ANOTHER SONG TO SHARE WITH YOU.. if you are "the O.C" fan ( an English drama starring Benjamin McKenzie as Ryan and Mischa Barton as Marissa Cooper), you might know this song. it was during the kiss scene of Ryan and Marissa during the Ferris wheel ride. song title: paint the silence artist: SOUTH How can you say your life is empty So late in the day Why would you stay another second Now your sight got in the way A combination Of love and aggression Another second lived Don't paint the silence black now save me Don't leave it a day You got a right to stand or die so maybe You take chances all the same Pain comes in stages If we dont make it Nothing changes Now the violence sleeps inside Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mind It's the reason why your teething side frustrates me Now the violence sleeps inside Abandoned feeling for just a piece of mind It's the reason why your teething side irates me Dont leave me to pick up on your questions Not even a day I...

Reality, infinity All the pieces here Athletic shoes, Chocolate mousse Cellular phone in his room You will see one day, I’m here to stay Hold your hand to me We’ll find a way Lightning streaks, teary bliss Slicking on the grease With company you will see What this all is meant to be You will see one day, I’m here to stay Hold your hand to me We’ll find a way ( chorus ) Close your eyes, snip your lashes They fall within the ashes The frosty old feeling, will melt oh so painlessly Close your eyes, kill the darkness The shears are in the closet The muses they pray loud For your listless journey to me Innocence, garlands burn All the memories Transparencies, you will see What this is meant to be You will see one day I’m here to stay, hold your hand to me We’ll find a way Close your eyes, snip your lashes They fall within the ashes The frosty old feeling, will melt oh so painlessly Close your eyes, kill the darkness The shears are in the closet The muses they pray loud For your listless jou...

picture taken from www.textfile.com ahh.... post ni agak scary... nak dipendekkan cerita. semalam aku dapat surat dari SPA menyatakan yang aku dah dapat tawaran untuk bekerja sebagai seorang doktor. hape?? tapi penempatan (posting) masih belum diketahui. minggu depan aku kene buat medical check up. ahh..rase macam besok je nak keje( nada takot)..boleh tak postponed lagi sikit. bukannya ape. memang la rase tak sabar-sabar nak kerja. maksudku, nak rase excitement sebagai seorang doktor macam kat batu pahat dulu. tak sabar nak dapat gaji pun ye gak sebab memang sekarang financially amat tight sekarang ni. tapi.... takot pun ada. yela. kalau ilmu aku tak lekang dek panas ok la. at least confident la sket nak buat keje. ni, soalan anatomy standard tingkatan 4 yang adik aku tanya pun aku tak leh jawab. ini bermaksud, aku kene revise balik segala knowledge about medicine. taklah rase bodoh dan takot sangat bile start keje nanti. ahh, berusaha la wani. cutimu dah sampai ke penghujung. watashi ...

ok...lets start fangirling!!!! since yesterday was his birthday, i feel like want to write something about him, AGAIN, even though i already did at my old blog. nevermind, i still want to meme... Yokoyama Yu atau nama sebenarnye Yokoyama Kimitaka ni seorang jepun. dia merupakan salah seorang ahli kumpulan Kanjani8 dan merupakan ahli yang tertua (baru je turned 27 tahun semalam). ape ek nak kategorikan mamat ni? dia ni menyanyi tapi suara tak sedap pun. dia berlakon (dalam Yukan Club and Haikei, Chichiue-sama, etc) tapi tak la sehebat mana pun. dia menari tapi tak la secantik mana pun. kehebatan dia mungkin cuma bercakap dengan banyak dan lawak yang acceptable. kesimpulannye, dia ni penghibur. kepada mereka2 yang kononnya mengenali aku lebih dari aku sendiri mungkin berkata, "ish..tak sangka wani ko minat ngan lelaki jambu macam dia ni"..kalau korang tak sangka, apatah lagi aku. mungkin benar cinta itu buta. tapi apa yang attractive pasal dia ni mungkin ability dia untuk membu...

i hope i still not too late to wish Happy Birthday to:- Lydia and Azah Jemaon (1st May) Babah (5th May) Najib Iqbal (7th May) yokoyama yu (9th May) atiqah morsid (11th May) hazmanina (12th May) and kepada semua yang menyambut hari ulang tahun pada bulan May dengan doa semoga kalian gembira dan tenang sentiasa. Happy Birthday!!

My superhero is getting older year by year but his spirit and hard works never fade. 5 th May 2008, my old man turned 52 but physically like 35-year-old bachelor. Thank to GOD, he is still healthy. If I have to write about my father, 100 000words is not enough to describe him. His personality, his dedications, his charms and his stories can never be summarized in one sentence as there are lots of things about him that I want to tell. I am so bless to have him as my father. So last Monday was his birthday. I was a bit disappointed for not being there on his birthday as I was in Malacca with my friends and the plan to celebrate his birthday was postponed when Aizat is back. Plus, he was always so busy sometimes I was not aware whether he was home or not. Even now, he was not at home, he is at Sabah for work. Hmm..let reminisce some of the memories I have about Babah. Last week, for the first time in my entire life, I went to listen to Babah’s talk. FYI, he is a lect...

do you still remember watching this movie called "Gremlins"? it is a story about this cute little cat-like creature with big eyes and pointed ears and it touched water, it turned into a hideous evil monster..have you?..sooo here, i give you the real Gremlins... wahhhhh...scary...see, right after she touched the water sally turned into a hideous kitty..warghhh i'll eat your flesh afterward..huarghh..don't run... yeahhh...i'm a kitty again!!!...ahhh..i love being pampered like this...

umbai... satu tempat di Melaka bagi orang yang tak suke makan seafood, mungkin korang tak heran la Umbai ni. tapi bagi orang yang suke makan seafood cam aku nih, aku anggap Umbai sebagai Syurga Makanan. ahhhhh... PERINGATAN!!!! sebelum korang teruskan membaca post ni..diingatkan..ianya tak sesuai dibaca oleh orang yang tengah berpuasa atau orang yang tak suke seafood. mungkin ianya akan membuatkan gastric juice anda dihasilkan dengan rancaknya takpun orang yang tak suke seafood ni, dengan membaca dan melihat gambar2 di post ni akan rase nauseated..perempuan mengandung pun tak digalakkan baca..takot mengidam..sekian.. lepas kitorang jalan-jalan kat Nilai haritu kan..(rujuk post sebelum ni)..since kitorang dah berkumpul satu family ni..(Ajat balik, Babah tak keje)..kitorang pun pegi la makan dinner kat Umbai..memang puas..dengan harga RM100, amat berbaloi sangat makan seafood yang berbagai jenis kat sini compare to makan pizza hut..OIIISHIIII!!!! sotong goreng tepung.. ikan siakap 3 rasa...

NILAI.... dalam bahasa inggerisnye....value... tapi bukan tu yang aku nak cakap, aku nak cakap pasal Nilai iaitu suatu tempat di Negeri Sembilan yang fames dengan jualan kain borongnya. dua minggu lepas kot, ke 3 minggu lepas??..(nta aku pun lost track. ni la akibatnya duk rumah lame sangat)..kami sekeluarga pergi la ke Nilai dengan misi untuk beli kain pelamin dan juga karpet untuk menggantikan karpet kitorang yang hancur akibat banjir dulu..tapi sebenarnya kitorang saje nak berjalan-jalan memula kami ke Nilai 1, jalan2 la tengok2 mane yang berkenan. memang banyak jenis kain dan corak ada kat sane. tapi entah kenapa aku takde keinginan nak membeli. "baju aku banyak lagi" fikirku. tapi babah duk mendesak suruh beli jugak "ko tu dah gomok* (gemuk)", komen ikhlasnya.tapi still, jutaan kain yang ada kat nilai tu tak dapat menarik hatiku untuk membeli tapi sekadar menarik untuk dilihat sahaja... picture speaks 1000 words (gambar bercakap 1000 kata)..so tengok la gambar2...

Lala dan Lulu Shaggy has additional 2 kittens. My mom went to dump rubbish at the dumpster one morning (last week) when she heard cats meowing near the dumpster. There were 2 little kittens around 1 week-old hugging each other and meowing probably calling their heartless and stomachless mother. My soft hearted mother then brought them home, put them in a box. I was not sure about my feelings towards this indisputably stupid act. I was so furious but who am I to get angry to a brainless animal that left her 1-weeker kittens. Because she is an animal hence I couldn’t say much. (in Malay, nak cakap bangang tapi nak marah pun tak guna sebab dia tu binatang yang tak berfikiran complex macam manusia yang terpelajar) However, I have a strong feeling that it wasn’t the mother itself purposely left them like that. Maybe an imbecile, acardia* and agastric* (it a medical term that gives meaning to a state with no heart and no stomach or in BM, tidak berhati perut) homo sapiens who did not wa...

Long silence doesn’t mean that I am not reproductive. That doesn’t mean that I was too busy either. It simply a period of lack of passion to write. Now I’m back with some interesting stories and thoughts to share. It will be separated into different post anyway. So what will it be then…..