The one with the Ramblings

january 2009 In O+G posting, as usual as being the normal depressed HO, complaining about life and questionings about needs. Febuary 2009 Happy Birthday to Raison detre. graduated from O+G. Bunch of friends came to Kuching. We had a blast of the lifetime. Hope other friends and family will come too. Another accomplished mission strike out from the the-things-we-want-to-do-in-Kuching-before-we-left's list and the been-there-done-that's list. March 2009 Me and Kakpah's most depressed moment. Our camera and laptops were stolen (hope the thief will be burn in hell, amin). Supported, and still supporting the Earth Hour. Enter Surgery posting and met hell lot of interesting patients and annoying bosses. April 2009 The in-love month. Major crush with Paul Walker because of Fast and Furious 4. In love with Hujan, the local band. Found new love to my baby compact LSR Lumix. mmmuahh. Phedophilia? me? I am not MJ. May 2009 Bako rocks. yes an0ther mission accomplished. Bought new ride,

ED bukannye holiday lagi. dengan sistem shift yang baru, (even though still ade sleep day), tak se-best dulu. kerje tetap kerja. rase tak sabar nak habis houseman, tapi tak sanggup nak jadi MO. best lagi jadi student. jom a balik medical school balik. tak pun jadi budak ni. hebat. dapat diagnosed influenza dengan cepatnye dan buat pembedahan dengan lajunya.. kawai.. aku rase aku kene stop tengok youtube and mula study. besok dah la ada megacode. boleh buat tak reti lagi depan komputer ni. and maybe i should start getting serious about my future. aku nak amik master ape? rase kagum dengan member yang dah amik exam master. finished part 1. dorang tau nak buat dengan kehidupan mereka. bukan macam aku. makan malam pun tak tau nak makan ape. inikan nak fikir pasal benda yang lagi 10-20tahun. ntahla labu...

Bile hati tak tau nak luahkan ape, dan otak terlalu berat untuk memikirkannya, perasan gundah gulana, tak keharuan tanpa haluan. Maka lihatlah mereka. Mungkinkah mereka dapat membantu?

forward peek behind then be happy what i have learned so far for the past 25 years of my life keep on walking forward look back once in a while and then you will smile and you will keep on walking enjoying every step who are they at your back; family, friends, surprising moments,bitter past, sweet memories. who are they in front of you; family, friends, moments and memories. am i regret now?...i guess its too late to talk about it. just use every single time you have and fulfill them wisely. besides, time is moving forward, never backward. don't be left behind. thank you to those who have celebrated my special day today. thank you. i am really flattered. i'll post the pics later. -done- family from my paternal side gave me a surprise birthday party..i lurve the pizzas...yummy sharing it with along and farhan my birthday breakfast made by my brother azmi Ibu bought me t-shirts so does Babah. Aman has not bought me anything yet so far but his presence alone enough to make me hap

I remember Ten years ago, i remember how i was into these guys, i was really into the movie, i was really into the comic. Today, i've decided to get crush again...fangurling time!!! When i was 10years old, i was into these comics like Alam Perwira and Pedang Setiawan (before i found Luffy and Gempak). A friend of mine would buy them every week and we took turn to read them at school. Then, they made it into live action (which i initially not too happy why they chosed Pedang Setiawan instead of Alam Perwira), i was estatic. These 2 guys had given me hope that there were still good-looking guys in this world. I lived in that dreams and hopes. Hence, my youth was not wasted. Today, i saw them again on the screen. They were not hots like before. They just gotten HOTTER!!...yea baby...They are old but HOT. Aaron Kwok(now 44 years old) never dissappoint me with his 6-packs abs and Ekin Cheng(a 42-year-old hottie) never fail to kill me with his cool look. Again, the world has regained my

for the first time, i feel so depress about manga. in bleach, shuhei the number 69-guy is dying? or worst.. dead? why? why they have to attack the handsome hot ones? why? what are you thinking Mr Kubo Tite san? you draw characters that are so good-looking and saliva-drooling so that you can kill them? nante? come on. in one piece. where the heck are those nakama from mugiwara pirates? where are zoro, sanji, usopp, choppa, frankie, nami, robin, Brooke? this is not the time to relax dude. come on people, the war has long started and we need to see some more intense action here. come back people. hayaku..hurry up. and where is that red haired Shank? what he is up to? get yourself a speed boat and bash the marine headquarters now!!. fairy tail. come on. everyone has a very bad past. i am sure everyone has at least a skeleton or two in their closet. now Gerard does look like he has repent from what he had done. even though the reason he acted like that because he has lost his memories. but

maybe i am a bit overreacting or exaggerating. but anyway. it did happened and i am here to brag about it. remember this story? ok the same specialist that complimented me (i think the only specialist that complimented me so far and even offered me to join anaest team when i graduate), still remembers me!!!...yeah... i had a patient with VERY difficult intubation. so we referred to anaest and he came. as usual and normal as he is. with his charm and dedication, he assessed the patient and at the same time taught me. initially i thought he might not recognized me (i was wearing a mask to protect others from my flu) but then before he left, he asked me this question? "so are you an MO now in ED?." (eh..do you still remember me?) "eh?...errr....no, i haven't finished my HO rotation Dr. i am still a mere houseman." "oh...see you again" and he smiled..(relieved? happy? or modesty?) what was that supposed to mean? should i be interested in anaest now? or sho