The one with the Ramblings

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAISON D'ETRE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... fuh fuh yeah..it exactly a year now since this blog started. lots of things have been told and shared and lots of junks as well. well its my blog so what? why? why raison d'etre? why not? when i want to start blogging i was wondering, "why should i have this blog for?". what do i want to achieve by having blog?. reason?. i was googling this word in the internet and thesaurus. looking for reason. and i found this. in wikipedia. its a french word. meaning, " reason for being". nice and catchy name. and suit me. i am looking for raison d'etre. reason for being me. do i find myself?. not totally. still looking. so please bare with me. (not bare naked ok..just be patient with me) thanks for reading raison. thanks for the feedback. thanks for reading. i know i am not alone in this world. (eceh, eceh. tetibe nak drama plak) what is your raison d'etre??

rambling start. there are always a period of time you became confuse, tired, soul less, heart less, emotionally and hormonally unstable and what you really want to do now is just to be ALONE . to be at some place where you can think and clear up your mind and to ask yourself "what the heck are you doing??" or " what the hell have you done?" i am in that state. i wish that everything surround me just stop so that i can take a breathe for a while. to leave up all these heavy rocks on my chest like an angina patient need his GTN stat. i wish i have pensive like Prof Dumbledore and put all my thoughts into it and restructure them and discard the useless ones. i need brain surgery. things always not going to be like you want them to be. ALWAYS . you plan for A but the one that we will execute is always plan B. plan A is a utopia and plan B is the pain-in-the-ass reality. and whenever we have plan B, you are not your normal self. your alter ego will appear. they will meet

haaa....last 10 days were like hell to me. surgery posting is tough. as tough as medical. with the so incompetent and annoying nurses in the ward which lack of almost everything. luckily i have a group of reliable colleagues and helpful MOs plus with my interest in surgery that help me going. things much better now once i get use to it. here comes my OD (once daily) urine, bath and eat. and weekly laundry. (hopefully it is not to the extend that i have to be naked to work..uuuu sexy lady). i need time out. that reminds me to my kayak adventure with kak pah and kak ainul last time. it was a day before my tagging days started. impromptu decision and a tremendous success. Borneo Highland is what we call a heaven. the scenery was splendid and reminded me to one of the reason i chose sarawak for my posting. i felt relax and happy. i've found the thing i've been looking for. peaceful mind. RM 188 for 6hours of miracle. lets do it again..

ahhh..its already the end of my end-of-posting holidays spent with my fellow friends from Semenanjung. we had a subtotal getaway (because we are pathetic beings who could not afford to miss gossiping and criticizing about our works and hospital even for a day..huhu) Day 1 me and kakpah woke up at 8am and the VIPs planned to arive at 8.30am. (huaaa..panic, panic, panic at the disco). but we still able to take our time to do a rapid, super fast house cleaning. who are the VIPs?? kak dell, kak dija, kak meha, iqbal and pakcik. hurray..welcome... AHHH..morning rise...start of a new day.. we had our breakfast at Kopi-O-Corner . for me it is a quite a nice place to have a breakfast that also serves local delicacies like kolok mee, Sarawak laksa and roti tuna mayonnaise. saliva drooolingsss.. accomodation?...its the courtesy from wani and pah's creepy villa (the best you can get in Pisang Road) and Hung-Hung Inn (where the XYs stayed). da di da di da after the check in thingy, we headed

the best news i have in 4months in O&G. i have the most sweetest conversation ever this year. the conversation... tuut..tuuut..tuuut... Chancellor:hello The graduate: hello Dr E, W here (very casually) C: yes G: i just want to ask you regarding my assessment last time (rock steady, not trembling at all despite being so frigging nervous about it) C: oh yeah, to whom you sent your logbook to? (huh, i knew it. she must not seen my logbook yet. never mind) W: owh, i sent it to Mrs M in the office C: oh ok, you know i was busy in the OT at that time. but never mind, i will look at it later but have you completed all the compulsory procedures? W: yes i have C: and when are you suppose to finish this posting? W: supposedly this sunday will be my last day and on monday i'll go to Surgery. and i am currently on leaves. C: oh...hmmm.. (after long thoughts, she suddenly broke the silence by uttering the words i've been waiting for the whole day) C: ok la. pass la W:...........really?

RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? walk like a man - frankie vallie and four seasons (of course i'm okay. i'm walking like a man. everytime i feel down i will walk like a man and keep on walking proudly.) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? gone -Nsync (yep, gone. hilang. sembunyi. misteri.uuuuu) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? no name- asian kungfu generation (hmm.i like guy with no name so that i can call him whatever i want. woi. oit. alang. all will do) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? sampai syurga-faizal tahir (sampai syurga aku tak tau my feeling today..hmm) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? lovebug-jonas brother (untuk menggigit cinta2 yang ada. kot ada la) WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? Dan-Sheila on 7 (dan motto aku ialah......dan) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? highschool rock

1) i hate you because every time i have a flat baby..i need to make sure i "document everything necessary" so that i can cover my ass in court 2) i hate you because you are so boring 3) i hate you because women is such a complex thing 4)i hate you because the liqour smells so bad 5) i hate you because the job is never end 6) i hate you because i don't like you 7) i hate you because sometimes pregnant women can be so annoying especially during the birth 8) i hate you because you pregnant women never stopped being pregnant 9)i hate you because the same reason in number 3 10) i hate you because i always oncall with brother J nothing in O&G that i like now..even the &.. tada..

another collection of mine more to go.. to be continued.....

yeahhhhhh..... sambil melompat2 keriangan dan berguling2 kegembiraan... akhirnya..setelah sekian lama(months)..asyik HUjan je.. akhirnya, dengan penuh drama...aku dapat melihat matahari diulangi MATAHARI SUN dan aku sambut kedatangannya dengan tawa yang riang...kikikiki stella tiki.. sunny! sunny! sunny! Sunny = bright day = go out = take pictures!! :) dan hari ini, Mr Sunny datang dengan beberape suprises yang aku tak expect(ceh. dah name pun suprise, mesti la tak expect..if you expect surprise, tak surprise la namenye) surprise pertama aku tahu seseorang ini yang bergelar Minci di dalam blog seseorang. aku tak pernah jumpe insan ni tapi aku tau dia kawan kepada member aku di Manchester. and member aku ni slalu mention name dia in her blog..dan harini....aku jumpe Minci in person!!...yang merupakan colleague satu department..what the!!..and aku baru tau insan ini Minci setelah 2bulan? kitorang kerje bersama...berape besar saiz bumi ni??..sape tau?? sebesar Minci ka?? surprise kedua r

hai hai.. skang tengah pre oncall depression.. oncall tu memang dah sesuatu yang depressing.. tambahan lagi.. aku oncall ngan registrar yang akan menambahkan lagi kadar depression aku.. perhatian semua.. labour ward kuching hospital akan karam besok... selamatkan diri masing2.. aku depress.. kenape asyik hujan je.. aku nak petang yang cerah.. pagi yang cerah.. aku nak jalan2.. dan amik gambar.. tengok orang.. amik gambar... jalan2 lagi.. dan amik gambar lagi... ahhh....bohsannye hidup... sekian.. kisahku yang depress..